Leaving Final

Final Version of ‘A time my world changed’
Leaving: Desirae Hoskins

My mind shifted
like the sun coming out from behind an obscure, rain-filled cloud
shimmering with its golden yellow rays
warming the embers of my seemingly blood-drained heart
I realized suddenly
you were not right.

Explaining my thoughts to you was the problem.
I pondered alone and confused trying to make this situation make sense.
How to express the feelings inside of me,
could I dare say-
that I felt unusual, insincere, and sad when I was in your presence?
The presence in which I once felt like a princess with the most gallant knight by my side.
The ethereal feeling, the joy, the care I once had was all gone.

Emotions of distress and fury ripped through my gut
making my normally calm and collected composure turn sour.
Fire and brimstone seemed to burn in my soul at the very thought of facing you.
I could not undo what went wrong in this fairy-tale like story, no happy ending for anyone.

But instead of telling myself I had to be with you
(a thought that would only come from your sick and sadistic mind)
my own thinking broke free:
The urge to flee.
If I could have been a bird at that very moment
I would have stretched out my long ebony wings and soared with the clouds
never to look back on something that once was.